'til next time,
XOXO, B
June 8, 2011
A big day.
It is my birthday, and last day as a college student. I cannot believe that this day has finally come! I am more excited than I have been in a long time! I can't seem to focus on my last minute studying... mainly because I have studied so much I am feeling burnt out. But that doesn't mean that I am not 100% nervous for this final. My final final, por supuesto, es el examen final del infierno. Ay. No quiero ir al examen, pero a las tres en la tarde, yo voy a acabar con la universidad! YAY! Alright, I just wanted to post in here today because I hadn't in awhile. Soon I will be moving back to my favorite place in the world, and a whole new set of adventures will begin. This is the end of my posts as a college student, let the new chapter of my life begin!
May 18, 2011
Adele and self-pity.
It's a Wednesday night, and it's one of those nights where if I was classy enough, or had a taste for it, I would be sitting here drinking a glass or bottle of wine, with candles lit, one lamp on, and the window cracked with a light breeze blowing in and making sheer curtains dance in the candle light. Adele is playing in the background, and I am sitting here breathing deeply, calming myself down. I am in one of those pondering moods, one where writing seems to be my only salvation from myself.
Life is moving fast. Too fast, in fact, that I cannot seem to get my footing. I am losing my barring, and spinning, and watching the world move past at a speed that is incomprehensible. I am inexplicably excited for the future, so much so that I wish it would just get here already. But I am also so nervous and so scared, I don't know what to do with myself.
But this blog post is not supposed to be about that. This blog post is to vent, to talk things out. This is my blog, and my space to just sit here and wonder about things. And tonight, I am going to wonder out loud about something that I just saw in a movie tonight.
What I am wondering is, why am I so unassertive most of the time? Why do I sometimes let people push me around? Why do I rarely stick up for myself until it is too late? It is something that I simply and utterly dislike about myself. I am fed up with it, and with people, who walk all over me, because they have figured out that they are that type of person that I cannot say no to. I am who I am, and I suppose that I will be that way for the rest of my life because that pattern has already been molded into me... but I wish that it wasn't. I want to just say NO. So at least for tonight, and at least on here, I am going to say it... NO, NO, NO, NO, NO. And you know what? Sometimes, I want to be the one who people do things for. I want to be the one that you leave wall posts for. I want to be the one you drive hundreds of miles just to support them.
Ha, maybe one day.
'til next time,
XOXO, B
May 4, 2011
Oh, jealousy.
"Oh, jealousy, look what you’ve done.
You’ve got a hold of me, you’ve made me become,
Who I’d never be. And I’m running from,
This jealousy look what it's done."- Good Charlotte
You’ve got a hold of me, you’ve made me become,
Who I’d never be. And I’m running from,
This jealousy look what it's done."- Good Charlotte
Jealousy is one of the worst emotions we human beings are capable of feeling. It is stupid and usually insignificant, and not worth every problem it continually creates. I want to be stronger than it, I know I can be; but every once in awhile it just jumps up and tries to take ahold of me. Thankfully a girl can have a great friend that will snap her out of it, but I do really want to learn how to turn it off myself. Jealousy is ugly, useless and beneath everyone. So jealousy- go away.
That's all for now.
'til next time,
XOXO, B
April 28, 2011
Burlesque.
So for those of you that know me, you know that I love theatre. I love drama, I love acting, I love singing, I love pretending like I know how to dance. I love it all. And that is why Burlesque is one of my new favorite movies. I recently was privileged to watch it with three of the most talented people I know, and then I rented it again tonight. I am obsessed. Birthday present idea? Yes?
I love the story, the actors, the music, but most of all, I love the theatricality of the whole thing. It is so beautiful. Yea sure some of the acting is so-so and it wasn't the most original plot; the point is, they did an incredible job making a movie with beautiful people, great singing, and awesome costumes and lighting.
I really wish I could own all of the outfits that were in the movie, but I don't think many people would find them socially acceptable. Maybe for Halloween? Anyways, I recommend it to anyone who wants to see hot girls in minimal clothing, amazing vocal performances by Christina Aguilera and Cher, the hotness of Cam Gigandet, and a feel good story.
'til next time,
XOXO, B
April 26, 2011
Blurbs
So I was just thinking...
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
"When you grow up, your heart dies."
"Can you tell I'm wearing underwear? 'Cause I totally am."
"I will never be the woman with the perfect hair, who can wear white and not spill on it."
"They just so sneaky that you think it was your idea.' 'Yeah. You're sitting back and you're like: "Oh, yeah. This my idea. But wait a second, why am I alone? Why am I unhappy?" "Why have I gained 20 pounds?"' 'They Jedi mind-trick you'"
"No! No! No!" Over and over! When you keep saying "No!" it just makes me so... Sometimes you make me so!... angry."
"To die would be an awfully big adventure."
"I want adventure in the great wide somewhere"
"It doesn't matter. It's in the past.' 'Yeah, but it still hurts.' 'Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it."
"In every job that must be done, there is an element of fun. You find the fun, and - SNAP - the job's a game!"
"I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. "
'til next time,
XOXO, B
April 17, 2011
Day 60- 60 Day Challenge
A picture of something you are excited about.
Cancun. Summer 2011.
Dang, 60 Days went by SO fast.
This photo challenge was really fun though, I will definitely miss it.
So, I guess this is so long until my next blog post!
'til next time,
XOXO, B
April 16, 2011
Day 59- 60 Day Challenge
Wow, only one more day of this! I am going to miss it.
A picture of something random you own.
April 15, 2011
April 14, 2011
April 13, 2011
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April 11, 2011
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April 8, 2011
Day 51- 60 Day Challenge
A picture of your dream car.
I have always loved the look of a Lexus... and this one is a cop car in the UK... I want it.
April 7, 2011
Day 50-60 Day Challenge
A picture of your most frequented place.
Work... but I seriously eat there every day too.
April 6, 2011
April 5, 2011
April 4, 2011
No good deed.
"No good deed goes unpunished, no act of charity goes unresented." -Wicked.
The other day when I was in a disagreeable mood, I couldn't help but recall these lyrics from the masterful musical, Wicked. The lyrics really made me sit and ponder whether every good deed does eventually get resented in some way or another, and wind up causing harm rather than good.
What if every good thing we do intentionally, ends up just being something that we use to draw good attention to ourselves instead of being something that was originally supposed to do some good for other people? And of course there is always a good and a bad kind of attention. And when people are getting a lot of good attention, there is always someone with their toes stuck in some evil goo trying to bring bad attention to the good people. Still with me? So then it would seem, if these lyrics are to be assumed correct, that every good thing we do for others will somehow be twisted and turned a different way, and made out to be something bad; totally defeating the purpose of the good deed itself. Well, if that is the case, then why not just stop doing good deeds altogether? Why not just become WICKED?
I think that is where the confusion resides. That is where I think that the truly good can see past the bad attention and whole heartedly believe in continuing to do good even if some bad does rise from it; versus the evil cannot see past what is good for themselves and therefore never do anything good for other people.
So maybe no good deed goes unpunished, but in the end, you still did a good deed, and that is what should be remembered.
Just some thoughts I thought I would share... gave me some new ideas for posts revolving around quotes from musicals too...
'til next time,
XOXO, B
April 3, 2011
Day 46- 60 Day Challenge
A picture of where you wish you could be right now.
For once, I actually am where I want to be right now.
April 1, 2011
March 31, 2011
March 30, 2011
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March 28, 2011
Day 40- 60 Day Challenge
Easiest day ever.
A picture of your favorite Disney Character.
Belle
And Eeyore.
March 27, 2011
March 25, 2011
March 24, 2011
March 23, 2011
March 22, 2011
March 21, 2011
Day 32- 60 Day Challenge
The perfect assignment for yesterday:
A photo fo a crazy night...
And the reason this is a day late is because I was having one! Happy Birthday, FOO!
March 19, 2011
Day 31- 60 Day Challenge
Over half way done!!!
A tradition you have.
Only those in my family will know what this is.
March 18, 2011
March 17, 2011
March 16, 2011
Day 28- 60 Day Challenge
A picture of something you are afraid of.
BLOOD.
Honestly, grosses me out/ freaks me out/ makes me want to pass out.
March 15, 2011
Day 27- 60 Day Challenge
A picture of you and a family member.
This is my Grampa.
He is one of my favorite people in the whole wide world.
He is so smart, so caring, and so funny.
I am very thankful that he has been such a large part of my life.
I love you, Grampa! Love, Punky.
March 14, 2011
Day 26- 60 Day Challenge
March 13, 2011
March 12, 2011
Day 24- 60 Day Challenge
Something you wish you could change.
My lack of having one of these little guys up with me at school.
Some day I will change this, and I cannot wait for it.
Yes, the main reason I did this was Google search yellow lab puppies.
They just make me so happy.
In reality, the one thing I really wish I could change is all the hate that fills this world.
March 11, 2011
Day 23- 60 Day Challenge
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