Exploring familiar places...

So, I am wondering how it is that I have lived in the beautiful place that is Santa Barbara for almost four years now, and I am just now writing a blog entry, or as I like to think of it as a more public form of diary entry, out by the beautiful beach. It is a beautifully sunny day in which a t-shirt and jeans is all you need to wear to be perfectly comfortable, and maybe a pair of sunglasses. I would love to just sit out here everyday as I am doing right now, and maybe weather permitting I will make more of a habit out of this while I have a small break in between responsibilities.

I would think that on a day like today, I would be miserable after having worked so much and slept so little today... but I am actually pretty happy. There is a song called, She's Only Happy in the Sun... I may have mentioned it before. But sometimes I feel like the name of that song goes along with me quite well. Or maybe it's that I actually had coffee this morning, and it is positively affecting me, and that later today I will start to crash. Who knows.

I know that in the next few months my life is going to be a little more difficult. It feels like my best friend moved away. I am just overreacting, and it will eventually become the norm to talk to my love so infrequently. But for the first while I know that I am going to be sad. I think that I am going to label the next chapter of my life as "Rediscovering and Redefining My Independence." It is a necessary step, and for a girl like myself, I am so surprised that I was able to let go of so much independence so quickly. It's funny how "...people do crazy things... when they're in love." (Meg-Hercules) I guess becoming more dependent because you have added someone you love to your life is not that crazy. But a year ago, if I were to have seen myself as I am not, I would have laughed and said I was crazy. It's funny how one person can just enter your life and turn it upside down. So, it's on to rediscovering and redefining my independence. Trying to find the happiness that I know I have with myself, and focusing on that for awhile, while also maintaining some dependence on the one person who has made me feel like I never have before.

Wow, that was a long little tangent.

So, this little exploration and rediscovery of the beach on the far side of campus has made me feel even happier than just the little droll bike ride around campus that I was going to do. This is a nice writing spot, and I am very excited to have stumbled upon it. It's also very entertaining hearing the sounds of the beach mixed in with the hustling and bustling of this university. I hope I come here more often. And now it's on to another one of my responsibilities, and with that I bid you farewell for now.

'til next time,

XOXO, B